I must confess that I used to be kind of a Humbug with Christmas (Hate the snow, the decorations, most of the music) though I've always LOVED giving gifts to my friends and family.
From 2009, back when my mom died, on, the holidays were even harder for me. My mom LOVED Christmas. She'd decorate the whole house, sing the songs, make the cookies, and believed in Santa Clause until her last breath.
The first Christmas without her, I was such a wreck I don't even remember it. The year after that, I was determined to be strong for my family's sake and at least pretend to like Christmas and celebrate it in her honor. Still it took several years before I could listen to a Christmas song without bursting into tears.
I've managed to fend off the holiday depression by staying busy and with two big families, that's actually pretty easy.
But something changed this year. Well, several somethings, but what's most astounding is this:
I'm totally in the Christmas spirit this year! I'm seriously not faking it, you guys!
I think part of it is because I got my Christmas shopping done early and in an efficient manner. Also I made some epic awesome gifts for a few special people in my life. I will be blogging about these after Christmas. :D
Also, it hasn't been snowing much here. (Which is really bad for my area environmentally, but face it, I HATE snow.)
Or maybe it's because I got to spend more time with my Grandma... who's almost as giddy about the holiday as my mom was.
And maybe it's because I've received so much joy from my friends and family this year.
Either way, it feels good. I was even at a store and smiling when the song "Mr. Ginch" was playing.
Holy wow, I actually LIKE that song.
But don't worry you guys, I will still ALWAYS be #TeamHalloween first and foremost.
Anyway, just thought I'd share this fascinating epiphany and I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas/ Happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanza/ Merry Yule, etc.